Ik denkt dus ik bestaat

–tripleDude, 2022

Afraid

You can easily see your mother’s afraid
The apple doesn’t fall very far
Can’t you really see that enough is enough
You gotta stop raising the bar

You know where it leads to
You’be been here before
Wake up inside yourself
You’ve got to open the door

I’m afraid I can’t carry on this way
I’m afraid I have to change, it’s not all I have to say
I always though I had it made
But I’m afraid that

I’m afraid I can’t carry on this way
I’m afraid I have to change, it’s not all I have to say
I always though I had it made
But I’m afraid that I’m afraid

Everything you learned in your formative years
Monkey see to bad monkey do
Put your therapy from your mind to your brain
And wear the theory as a shoo

You can try to hide from yourself or from god
The mirror sends you searching for clues
Is misleading me the right way to proceed
All your life you will be with you

I’m afraid I can’t carry on this way
I’m afraid I have to change, it’s not all I have to say
I always though I had it made
But I’m afraid that

I’m afraid I can’t carry on this way
I’m afraid I have to change, it’s not all I have to say
I always though I had it made
But I’m afraid that I’m afraid

You know where it leads to
You’be been here before
Wake up inside yourself
You’ve got to open the door

I’m afraid I can’t carry on this way
I’m afraid I have to change, it’s not all I have to say
I always though I had it made
But I’m afraid that

I’m afraid I can’t carry on this way
I’m afraid I have to change, it’s not all I have to say
I always though I had it made
But I’m afraid that I’m afraid

I am afraid when I look inside
I am afraid to move past all the fright

I am afraid there’s no end to it
I am afraid of the full depth of the pit

I am afraid that I’m not tough enough
I am afraid that I am not enough

I am afraid
I am afraid
I am afraid
Of what?

Dare to go

I was staying up late, didn’t like the show
They were telling answers that I didn’t know
I like my life in an ignorant style
Every change I make, boy that takes a while

Instant, dawning, lucid, moment
Seeing my gravestone with an epitaph
Realization and then fear setting in
“He did not, but he should have”

Gotta get my ass to act upon the dreams I have instead of “fun”
Cause what is fun that gets deferred? Of happiness I’ve never heard
Gotta get my ass, get my brass, into gear
Gotta get my ass, out this mess, out of here

I was easing through school, never worked a dime
They were doing their thing but I didn’t have the time
Well it all worked out, I’m am doing just fine
Got my money and my business, get to say this is all mine

Nagging, feeling, no completion
Seeing my gravestone with an epitaph
Realization, pouring power in my will
“He had nothing that you don’t have”

Gotta get my ass to act upon the dreams I have instead of “fun”
Cause what is fun that gets deferred? Of happiness I’ve never heard
Gotta get my ass, get my brass, into gear
Gotta get my ass, out this mess, out of here
Get goals clear
Engineer
Get goals clear

Whoo hoo ho hoo
I know, I know
Dare to go
Whoo hoo ho hoo
I know, I know
Dare to go

Gotta get my ass to act upon the dreams I have instead of “fun”
Cause what is fun that gets deferred? Of happiness I’ve never heard
Gotta get my ass, get my brass, into gear
Gotta get my ass, out this mess, out of here
Get goals clear
Engineer
Get goals clear

I don’t know
Who runs this show
Don’t I know
Who runs this show

I know, I know
Dare to go
I know, I know
Dare to go free

Consequence

I don’t want to stay at home
please throw me a bone
I don’t want to be that man that always is alone

I feel I am left out cold
Can almost feel the fence
They make a prison of our homes, this is not common sense

Consequence
I don’t care
Consequence
I’m not there

What can I do
While I don’t know
What the truth now
Represents
But dissecting
Information
And deciding
Consequence

Deciding consequence

I know they are saying this
While really saying that
Do you hold me for a fool, I ain’t your lab or rat

Feel my veins they’re pulsing wild
Stop trying to constrain
I feel the shot is taking hold, it’s crawling in my brain

Consequence
I don’t care
Consequence
I’m not there

What can I do
While I don’t know
What the truth now
Represents
But dissecting
Information
And deciding
Consequence

Consequence
Consequence
Consequence
Consequence
Consequence
Consequence
Consequence

Wereldzaken

Alles. Is. Ok.

Alles. Is.

Ok.

Still in love

I went away
You stayed the same
I did not play
Who is to blame

You gave away
I kept my aim
You went astray
Who is to blame

You know / What you did to me
Darling
What did you / Think that I would do
Darling
Or did you / Just want to see
Darling
If I am / Still in love with you
Darling

I made you stay
You played a game
I felt betrayed
Who is to blame

You made me pray
I stayed the same
You said okay
Who is to blame

Who is to blame

Savior

Late at night, I saw your light, I was driving through the hood
The air smelled haze, I saw your face, you were up to no good
Indecisive, agonized, taking a deep breath
Was already wrecked, I had to act, not another death

Ten years ago, you wouldn’t know, you have scarred my life
Cause your face then, it was the same, but directed at my wife
I struck first, that got me cursed, I was aiming for your heart
But it went sour and now I cower, I dropped my guard

Who is my savior
Where is my savior

As I missed, I felt a fist, hitting at my core
It was you, but it was me too, I dropped to the floor
Something snapped, an itch that crept up my spine to my brain
Why did I believe my lie, I feel going insane

What is this, something’s amiss, I am looking for a host
I’m all alone, can’t touch this stone, damn… I‘m a ghost


Licht verhuld duisternis

duisternis is
licht brengt

je ziet duisternis
alleen door licht

licht verhuld duisternis

 

Verandering

ik

hoef

niets

te

doen

Ego~Meta

I was in the book

instead of experiencing it

I was in the story

instead of observing it

I was the point

instead of

One